Saturday, September 19, 2009

malam raya

malam ini malam raya.
dari jauh terdengar bunyi takbir raya.
lunak suaranya bertakbir.

sedang telinga enak mendengar takbir raya.
karen elektrik putus tiba-tiba.
bergelap lagi.tangan pun mencari2 lighter.
mencari lilin.

malam ini malam raya.
tanpa keluarga.
tanpa saudara.
tanpa teman2.

jadi bagaimana?
ok ok saja.
tiada yang luarbiasa.
semua berjalan ok.
hidup mesti terus.

tiada alasan.
pada malam raya.

Tuesday, September 15, 2009

do something for is short.

1. Another few days and Ramadhan will be leaving.Syawal is coming. I really hope that everybody will have a meaningful Ramadhan in his own way. This year marks something. I will be celebrating Aidilfitri on the plane. looking forward to experience that moment. How does it feel? Is that bad or it is just another typical day on the flight? I dunno,i ll wait this Sunday to share the feelings.

2. Today i did some thinking on scholarship. Why should i apply for scholarship? What does it take to have the scholarship? What's in return? What would you do to have it? why is it so important to have scholarship? Why dont you used another resources than scholarship? Why not scholarship?

3. the year is near to the end. another few months and a new year is coming. what have you done for yourself this year? have you achieved something? have you gained something? have you done enough for yourself? have you ever ask yourself, that you can have whatever you want if only you wanted to have it?

4. next year is coming. and i have set few plans for myself. i hope i can have them all. this year is going to the end. and i am proud with some of the achievements i made for myself.

5. do something for yourself. life is short.

Sunday, September 13, 2009

searching for clue

1. i spent a lot of my time searching for a clue. trying to understand what phd is all about. figuring what phd is meant to be. why it should be achieved? why people like me should proceed phd? what is so great about phd? why people go for phd? why do you tormenting yourself?

2. i have been surfing a lot of blogs regarding to phd. personal blogs by phd students. blogs by phd supervisor. from the academician. from a lot of people.

3. what did i get? it is a long and winding journey. it takes 200 percent commitment. it takes you. the whole you to complete the journey. it is a serious matter. and i still thinking about it. day and night. now and then.

4. time will tell. and i am running out of time.

Saturday, September 12, 2009


1. Ramadhan comes and goes. This year is the toughest.The water crisis in the island. So how do i survive the crisis? What did i learned?

2. The first 2 weeks of fasting was fine. the weather was fine. the water supply was fine. the food also was fine. tarawih was performed. i managed to wake up early and have my sahur. i also cook for break fast for the first two weeks.

3. then what happened when it comes to the third week? the water supply started to show red sign. sometimes we have water. sometime we dont have water. but it becomes worst when we dont have water for 2 days. what did i do? i can have water, but i have to gain water. i have to collect water using a pail and carry it to my place. roughly i have to do that several times to make sure i have enough water supply.

4. in times like this, i tend to appreciate water. i found out that, i can have a descent bath using a pail of water. i can use the washing machine and yet minimizing the water manually. apart from that, i am capable to use the water economically.

5. people tend to take things for granted when it comes to water usage. nobody bother to turn off the water during shower, shampooing, brushing teeth and washing dishes. i found out that i can minimize the water usage in every tasks involving water.

6. i guess god is teaching us to appreciate water during ramadhan. teaching us some lesson about hardship and appreciation. life can be meaningful without water. it depends on you. how do you survive in time like this.